THINGS I HATE ABOUT MYSELF:
1. MY CHRONIC ILLNESS
2. MY CHRONIC ILLNESS
3. MY CHRONIC ILLNESS

AN EMOTIONAL TIME WHERE NOTHING MAKES SENSE ALL THESE THINGS I THOUGHT WOULD HAPPEN, ALL THESE REALITIES FALLING DOWN HITTING MY IN THE NOSE SOFT LIKE SNOW AT FIRST IT'S ALL JUST FLAKING AWAY YOU ARE ALL FLAKES REALITY FALLING DOWN HITTING ME IN THE FACE WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ANYMORE

WHOA, SHIT, WACKNESS

WHOA, SHIT, I LOOKED BACK OVER MY LYRICS FROM LAST YEAR THAT SHIT WAS SO WACK, WTF? I THINK I'M IN A HEADSPACE OF AUTHENTICITY RIGHT NOW, FEEL LIKE I CAN COMMUNICATE THAT, LIKE I GOT THE TOOLS 2 DO IT. HERE I GO.

THIS IS TURNING INTO A ZINE

SEARCHING

THERE'S PROBABLY NO BETTER PLACE TO FIND TRUTH

THAN IN A LANDSCAPE OF ILLUSIONS

I'LL BE OK

I'LL BE OK
I'LL BE OK
I'LL BE OK
I'LL BE OK
I'LL BE OK
I'LL BE OK
I'LL BE OK

I WILL GUIDE YOU

Mufasa: Simba, let me tell you something my father told me.
Look at the stars. The great kings of the past look down on us from those stars.

Young Simba: Really?

Mufasa: Yes. So whenever you feel alone, just remember that those kings will always be there to guide you. And so will I.

I'M OK

I WANT TO SMILE A LOT
I NEED TO CARE LESS ABOUT SILLY STUFF
&BE MORE OPEN-MINDED

I WAS JUST A SAD GIRL FOR A LONG TIME
BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW ANY BETTER

LEARNING

I'M STILL LEARNING HOW TO GIVE MYSELF WHAT I NEED
I USED TO SEEK TO IMPROVE MY SELF-WORTH
THROUGH MY RELATIONSHIPS WITH OTHER PEOPLE

GROWING UP
MY MOTHER GAVE ME TOO MUCH ATTENTION
MY FATHER GAVE ME NO ATTENTION

PURGATORY
THE OSCILLATION BETWEEN AFFECTION AND UNCARING BEHAVIOR

I AM CONFUSED ABOUT WHAT CONSTITUTES
AN APPROPRIATE ATTACHMENT

FOR ME BEING INDEPENDENT IS A LIFE-LONG STRUGGLE

I NEVER GOT THE LOVE I NEEDED
TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF
I NEVER GOT THE FREEDOM I NEEDED TO BE CONFIDENT
THAT I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF

IT'S TIME I STARTED LEARNING TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF
TIME TO START LOVING MYSELF
TIME TO BE CONFIDENT
I CAN SUCCEED
I WILL LIVE INDEPENDENTLY
I WILL LEAVE ALASKA
IT WILL TAKE TIME
BUT I CAN DO IT

SMACK IN THE FACE

HE SAID

WHY DON'T YOU
HAVE A LIFE

ME ?
I THOUGHT

I WAS WONDERING
THE SAME THING

ALL THAT PAST

STANDING
WITH THE SEA
BEHIND ME
I WANT NOTHING

MORE THAN
THE DISTANT
MEMORY

PARTING WAVES
ON THE SHORE
WASH AWAY

ALL THAT PAST
TINY SAND
NOTHING MORE

BYE ANY WAY

ANY WAY
I'M LEAVING SOON

ANYWAY
YOU WON'T SEE ME

SO BYE

POST-COITUS

HEY I WONDER
AFTER ALL THIS
IS OVER
WHEN YOU'RE
SUCKED DRY OR
WHEN YOU'VE COME
ON MY FACE
&WHEN I FELT YOUR
DICK GO SOFT
INSIDE ME
WHAT'S LEFT OVER
FOR ME?

ODE TO A...

HOW MANY TIMES
HAVE I THOUGHT ABOUT
THIS EXTENSION
OF YOUR DICK

MY DICK IS YOUR DICK
AND HIS DICK
AND HER DICK

IT'S OUR DICK
IT'S MY DICK

I LOST MY STUFFED ANIMAL
A MONTH AGO
BUT THAT'S OKAY

I FOUND SOMETHING
MORE SUBSTANTIAL

LEARN TO FALL

OH

PAIN

SURPRISE!

HAVE A GREAT FALL

BLINK

THEN

STAND UP AGAIN



DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME

I'M OK

I FALL ALL THE TIME

I LIKE TO FALL DOWN

HIT THE GROUND

AND

I LIKE TO STAND

UP AGAIN

TIC TAC

DO YOU EVER
GET THAT
NOT SO FRESH
FEELING

SUCK IT
IN BETWEEN
YOUR TEETH

THESE WHITE PILLS
MELT ON SPIT
SWIM IN TONGUES
ENTER BLOOD

FEEL THE GRIT
AFTERTASTE
BITTER LIKE A
TIC TAC

NOW SUGAR
SUGAR YOU CAN
BREATHE EASY